Today I had an epiphany, and I should be rejoicing, because though the road ahead will be long and ardous, the future seems bright and I am determined more than ever to realise my dreams.
But it pains me because I don't think I will have the support of someone I thought I loved. He tells me to head off to study with all his heart, and that I should put in every effort to make it work, but when asked "Will we make it?" replies with a "I really don't know what's going to happen, it's hard.". At this point I am very torn between an uncertain future with this person and being selfish and just leaving everything I care about behind to embark on 'the path'. It's not easy and my heart is screaming out to be cradled and watched over whilst I make preparations and see what my options are.
Is it that hard?
But it pains me because I don't think I will have the support of someone I thought I loved. He tells me to head off to study with all his heart, and that I should put in every effort to make it work, but when asked "Will we make it?" replies with a "I really don't know what's going to happen, it's hard.". At this point I am very torn between an uncertain future with this person and being selfish and just leaving everything I care about behind to embark on 'the path'. It's not easy and my heart is screaming out to be cradled and watched over whilst I make preparations and see what my options are.
Is it that hard?