Thursday, January 27, 2005

On the lapse:
It's good to have my laptop back. Was on loan for 2 weeks, and had to wean myself off it. Was cold turkey for the first few days but got better after a week. Never realised how dependant I was on the internet, the very thing my father feared when he first agreed to get a computer and hook us up to the WWW in 1997. This dependancy probably stems from laziness and voyuerism.

On being 25:
Did away with the 2004 style party and pictionary. Had massive burgers and beer with Shif, Ed, Jen, Hen, Dez the friday before, and Shif, Hen and Dez arranged a nice birthday dinner at Shaslik on the actual day. Which we finished off with
durian cake
Angie's the Choice- Durian Cake. This was AWESOME! They actually filled it with fresh durian paste, was so Divine, we finished the ENTIRE cake between the 4 of us! Pam, wish you were here.

The Day after, Dez came over at night to deliver Lana cake, complete with candles and all by my poolside. It felt so secondary school as we sat there scooping chunks of cake into our mouths.
lana
Lana's Chocolate Dream- Happy BETALED birthday!

On the year ahead:
A career change is in order. I need to look for something that will set me on the path for the next 15 years at least.
I am now officially on the Atkins diet. I had Yong Tow Foo for lunch and fish for dinner. I vow not to eat bastard carbos, chocolates, chips or indulge in any sugared drinks other than diet coke.
A general change in fitness, sprituality, creativity, literacy, career, fillial piety and esteem is definately in order,

On us:
I am still in pain.

Tuesday, January 04, 2005

My name is Josephine and I am 25 this year. I was born 3 weeks late as I refused to come out of my mother's womb into this stinking cesspit of shit called the world. When I was 5, I took off my shorts and urinated on one of the big cushions in the living room and then proceeded to place my 1 year old brother on top of it, needless to say the poor bastard was spanked silly. But we have since grown up and I love my brother, sometimes I rub his back.

I was schooled in Singapore for most of my 16 years, and during the 17th my mother decided that I should go to UK and make some lesbian Hong Kong girl very happy in a repressed convent in the middle of East Sussex. I got drunk on a bottle of hooch and slipped and fell on some preppy english boy's pee. I also snogged a very ugly boy called Hector. My chemistry teacher was a pervert and used to love looking up Cassendra Genn's (child prodigy) skirts during class. Cassie would hike up her skirts and put on a show for the old man.

4 years in Australia, 3 months laboratory internship, 1 month film production, 1 day secretary to Italian delegate, 6 months into communications for a not-for-profit. Sometimes I cry for no reason, I drive my friends mad, and they get annoyed with me sometimes and ask me to eat more so I will bloat and explode. I oscillate in and out of mild depression which is induced by my over melodramtic self and music. I hate it when people lie to me, but I too am guilty because I tell them about the gnomes that stand beside me and pull faces when I get mad, but that's not really lying cause I am not too sure if they are actually there or not.

Monday, January 03, 2005

And Hello.
It's the start.
The beginning?
The end.

I woke up this morning with a heavy heart.

Is this the New Year?
Is this the rest of my life?