Emotionally I was feeling really low today, but what else is new right? I'm just generally fucked up, and you all probably think that I'm some self pitying sod that had nothing better to do other than to mope and winge about how life is unfair, unjust that I should be getting better, asking Why me? Wishing you could just bitch slap me and tell me to SHUT UP already, (yea, that would be quite nice actually), that life is'nt so hard that I should stop being a helpless barking bitch constantly seeking for affection, waiting, needing, hanging my heart out on the line, that I should grow some balls, work on my self confidence and self worth before even talking about the future, that this is'nt all there is to life is it? Is it? Sick of this stinking rat race, want out, wallowing, drowning, waiting for some sort of divine intervention, always seeking for more, utterly selfish, uncaring, evil, pretencious wanker of a slut, whoreing myself to mediocrity, to the everyday things, settling, procrastinating, back stabbing, boring old self, looking for a renwal of sorts, spiritual? intellectual? complacency seeping out of every possible orifice, procrastinating, languid, impressionable feeble minded yeilding little person, spinless childish, vengful plastic girl, wanting out, running.
It's just one of those days.
I'm shallow.
Food makes me happy.
Edwin and Jen, touched down from Sydney this evening, dove across the island to bring me heaven on earth. God my friends are the best. If it was'nt for Trina bringing Krispy Kreme's from Sydney last year and Edwin and Jen's so-sweet-I-go-cry-now efforts of love, I would not have had the chance to sink my teeth into the delight that is Krispy Kreme.
Thank you friends.
The newly weds; THEY BROUGHT ME KRISPY KREME!
Shifaa and Hendri, faster chop which one you want, do not allow me to finish them all!
Pam, In chilli crab fashion I will foil wrap them, put them in a pastik container and kindly pick it up from the post office.
Trina, more glazed doughnuts?
It's just one of those days.
I'm shallow.
Food makes me happy.
Edwin and Jen, touched down from Sydney this evening, dove across the island to bring me heaven on earth. God my friends are the best. If it was'nt for Trina bringing Krispy Kreme's from Sydney last year and Edwin and Jen's so-sweet-I-go-cry-now efforts of love, I would not have had the chance to sink my teeth into the delight that is Krispy Kreme.
Thank you friends.
The newly weds; THEY BROUGHT ME KRISPY KREME!
Shifaa and Hendri, faster chop which one you want, do not allow me to finish them all!
Pam, In chilli crab fashion I will foil wrap them, put them in a pastik container and kindly pick it up from the post office.
Trina, more glazed doughnuts?